I should just shoot myself in the foot

For all it's worth, I apologize to those I have flown off to in the past few days. I still feel like stinking shit, and there's no excuse for having these mood swings in such exaggerated proportions. My formal apologies to de lunes a viernes (sorry man, I really though you were making fun of me).

I have to apologize profusely to Eze too, and I don't even know where to begin. I flew off the handle all too easy, and unfortunately I cannot promise it won't happen again, 'cuz until I learn to control the way hormones affect my emotions, it will keep hapenning :(

I am afraid now to lose him because of these bouts of rage and depression. Very afraid ... afraid that the relationship will grow frail and brittle because of me and my stupid impulses.

I am really sorry Eze. There are no words to apologize for this. No words. And I know that telling you how important you are in my life will do very little to mend whaever it is I feel I broke. Besides, you already know it.

I feel small and insignificant right now ...

Ezequitis

... I miss my boyfriend even if we just parted this morning ... must be the PMS shite going on again but manifesting itself in a crave for affection rather than an accute depression.

I started three days ago in my new/old job (D&A), and I'm feeling pretty rad in here, right now. I do meaningful work and yet have still time to slack off, plus I'm surrounded by people akin to my interests (or at worst, still within the fringes of my tolerance).

Yesterday Eze took me and Alfonso to eat at Tierra Santa. YUMMY food! We had a blast (too much of a blast, apparently, according to the bill). But what I ate was heavenly! plus I missed hummus too.

Well ... no angst to report about, so we are good to go! ALIAS tonite! :-D

ULTIMAS PALABRAS

Well. it is finished and done with. Tonight, the radiocumentary airs at 9AM @ WRTU 89.7FM. A work of art, definitely. But I had never been there for the making of such pieces... for this one I was, and all I can say is:

I am very proud of you, Eze. Words cannot confer the admiration I feel for you when I catch a glimpse of what you can do, of your dreams and aspirations, your vision and your goals. Makes me wanna stay for the long haul and help you, back you up in whatever ventures you have planned for your life.

This program is gonna totally fucking ROCK! Tune in tonite! ;-)

LUNA!

Like a little bat out of the dark, she shot through my heart the moment I saw her in the refuge. Immediately I fell in love with her soft ways and almost painful shyness. So I adopted her, and she is finally home today. Nine months old, weighing a bit less than a sackful of feathers, striping the house in black and white, she is:



LUNA!

... and then today

I handed in my resignation. A few hours ago.

Sorry, folks, but



Ease up on the level, try again. This time you just overworked the metroid pixels... the console just fused out and burned. It has been picked up and handed to the next player. Thanks for trying.

NEXT!

And then finally...

... they called me. :-D

My Vengeance

Now There's That Fear Again
by Mum

Give a stale piece of my braids
Float down strangers

Flow and stay
Hang on to the skin and stay

Float with a noise without rhymes
Float down stream
Hang on to my eye to my eye

It seems

... that things may be going the way I hoped ... we'll just have to wait and see. More on that later ...